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can’t believe i’m blogging, lol. its been so long since i blog, apparently i couldn’t think of anything else to blog since i got here and most of my blogs are about my rants and shits, if i can remember in my first account in tumblr i blog there alot, almost everything that happens to me then i shut it off cuz i wasn’t able to tell everything i could probably because of my followers knows me in person, i was afraid i might offend them and until now,i still have some follwers that knows me, but i guess i can’t take that away.

i know, i reblog alot about random shits, foos especially dave, LOL. its just that i couldn’t really write what i want to say, even at this moment so basically this is just some random blog i’m doing so i can cover up my “reblogs” hahaha, i feel sorry about my followers, i mean i know how it feels when you go to tumblr and you keep on scrolling down to find something interesting but it takes a few mins to get there because your friends or whatever you call em’ reblogs a lot of random shit, its annoying, i know and somehow i turned into that kind of blogger and i apologize about that, but hey its my blog right? so i don’t really give a fuck.

so right now i want to share about people, in my life, i met or whatever. sometimes they became precious to you but some fucking twisted things happens that most of them goes away and sometimes they changed, you won’t be able to change that i mean its part of growing. i learned a lesson that you should stop caring for those who careless about you, because i used to care alot and most of the time i’m the one who’s apologizing whatever reason its is or even if i didn’t do anything wrong. it just feels like i have to so they won’t go away, i don’t give a fuck about pride, my dad thought me when i was little that pride won’t get you anything and anywhere. cuz God didn’t let his pride to go off the walls when everyone was cursing at him, like we humans do (my dad is a very religious person) so its stuck in my mind as i grow up. but i know there’s a time that we’ll reach our limits and i guess i reached mine, so i stop. i stop fixing things, i stop caring and just go and enjoy my life cuz you have to agree with me that there was this fucking point when you reach it right? you’ll get tired to chase everyone, trying to fix it and even try your fucking best just to fucking please them but at the end of the day its fucking useless. and i did, i let those people go, who couldn’t appreciate me, who can’t stay with me and just be contended for those who stays with you and you know what? it feels so fucking good, it wasn’t that complicated as it used to be but then weird things happens right? hahaha you just have to suck it let it sink and let it go, that’s life.

so i guess my conclusion here is that when you already have pearls or gold in your hand stop looking for more, you know and just be thankful cuz you found one. be happy and have some fucking satisfaction in your life dude, seriously.

me and my best friend txting
bff: i'm bored
me: me too
bff: i'm watching glee.
me: dave doesn't like glee
bff: yeah i know.
me: yeah, i'm watching dave.
bff: sigh..
you can never fully move on something that was made wrong until you face it and fix it. Admit your mistakes, accept yourself and forgive the people who hurt you. Yes its hard, people will laugh at you or ignore but you’ll be able to live your life as a free man.
gerly (thought)
it seems to me that i cannot trust anyone in this place anymore even blood likes.

i just wished i have never trusted anyone in this place from the very start. God, i only trust in you, alone.

fact#25

guys who sends/gives me sweet words for courtship sickens me. they’re all just words of lies and i’d like to say they better fucked off because i’m busy.

i can’t catch up with the guys here in my place because i’m still somehow stuck with you, the fact of letting go is hard. i still think you linger here with me. why is that?

you we’re my everything..but i was only your option..

"if" you just put a lil bit of effort, we could have stayed longer..

they’re building it up, making a tower of full eyes, judgement and cruelty. i wanna break it. i need to destroy it. so help me God.

breakfast?

hindi ata uso sa akin yun eh :)) and if ever man uso yun sa akin, waley naman sa bahay :)) since, i always eat outside for breakfast? lunch and so on. i really love having breakfast especially in the house with the people you love to be with, problem here is that, we don’t do that now, since its just me and my brother here in the house, so basically “we’re on our own”. and yes i know its bad. share? 

survive.
  • don’t care about others
  • forget the past keep moving
  • experience failures
  • grow up if needed go change.
  • try not to throw up
  • give love and be hurt
  • stop looking back and looking forward
  • appreciate what you have and what you are.

appreciate and experience life. keep smiling.

grey clouds.

i still can’t believe that you were able to push me away, just like that, it hurts but i’m still coping, thinking of when to let go.